Continuance of Elf bound fic thingy...

[adamantiumloner]

Logan knelt down over the table and lined up his shot. He gave a hard knock to the cue ball, harder than necassary even for breaking, and watched as the group burst up and thumped around the table. Not one of them sunk. Growling in irritation he chalked up his stick and walked around the table angling for a shot. He'd been at it for awhile now, this and other activities to try and ease his anger ever since he'd found Kitty's note, leaving a wake of destruction behind.

His room where he'd found her paper was a shambles, the garage where he'd gone and found his bike missing one tire in a show she wanted him to stay was a wreck, and the hallway just outside her door was even a bit messed up. It took everything for him too stay outside the door and not go tearing into her or Kurt's room. In fact the Danger room had paid much the price for that's where he'd headed after halting himself at her door. From there it was the kitchen, the patio and now the rec room. She'd gotten back with Kurt somewhere between here and his mad pacing outside but he'd stayed away. For several reasons, for one he wasn't entirely as forgiving of Kurt as Kitty would be, especially after how much danger she'd put herself into tonight to save him.

He warned her, reminded her constantly of how much she needed to be careful. If something had happened tonite to her or the baby...he didn't want to think about it. Instead he tried to calm down and took a shot at the nine ball. And knocked it off the table. Nope, this didn't seem to be working either.

Comments

[adamantine-past.livejournal.com]

He kept up with is game, knowing she was there but not feeling calm enough to talk to her just yet. An argument wouldn't be good right now, tonights events were probably alread stress enough.

It took him a while, several scratches and more loose balls off the table, but he finally made a clean shot and straightened up. "He off to his mom's already?" He asked as he played with the chalk and cue while studying the table.

[twisted-kit.livejournal.com]

"Best pace for him right now" she answered quietly, leaning against teh doorframe.

"And his dad asked me to send him there anyway." she sounds...tired. Stressed, worried, hell, scared. It took a lot to face a soceress and bluff her...

[adamantine-past.livejournal.com]

He frowned, not liking the table. Or maybe it was Kitty's tone, either way he tossed the stick down ontop of the game and turned around to face her. "How bout you? How'er you doin?"

[twisted-kit.livejournal.com]

"I feel kinda sick" she admitted. "And tired. But it's over."

That was enough right?

She really just wante dto curl up and cry, but it would take awhile for her to let herself do that...

[adamantine-past.livejournal.com]

He went to her right away when she said that. All anger melting away for worry, "Darlin? See...I toldja, come on. Ya need to rest, its done, he's back an you can take it easy for a bit." He led her over to one of the couches and set her down. "Didja eat? How bout yer pills, you take those?" He wasn't used to this. He'd never before planned on being a father or loving someone enough to be responsible for them. And now that he was he was determined to do a good job and not screw it up. Which was in different ways, endearing, humourous and annoying.

"You want a blanket?"

[twisted-kit.livejournal.com]

And she managed a weak chuckle at being...well, pampered. She was equally determined to be a good parent...what else could make her face the nightmares when she couldn't drink coffee?

"I ate. I took my vitamins. A blanket would be nice" she answered his rapid fire questions, curling on her side and just kind of shaking for now.

[adamantine-past.livejournal.com]

He nodded and was gone, quickly returning with a blanket for her and a mug of milk. "Brought this case you wanted it." He set the mug down on the floor and wrapped the blanket over her, considering a moment before sitting down on the couch and easing her head onto his lap. Rubbing her shoulder gently he tried to sooth her. "Easy darlin, like I said you can relax now. You gotta calm. It'll be alright though...I don't see why you had ta go...I coulda got him, you risked a lot today..."

[twisted-kit.livejournal.com]

She grimaced slightly at the mug of milk but didn't grumble. A month of that had been enough. She began to cry silently, tears simply leaking down her cheeks "We...I...had to take care of that witch. Else it wouldn't hjave been over...we couldn't just take him..."

[adamantine-past.livejournal.com]

"I know darlin, I'm sorry..." He said quickly and gently as she began to cry. "I'm just worried bout ya, I'm sorry...but you did. Got her an brought the Elf back..."

[twisted-kit.livejournal.com]

"I must be losing my nerve...I kept thinking "Dear god, please let me get through the next minute...and teh next..." i"ve never been so scare din my life without being angry. I"ve always been angry,....it helps.."

She curled up tighter in the blanket the silent tears became sobs...

[adamantine-past.livejournal.com]

Logan frowned and carefully pulled her up into his arms. Holding her close he stroked her back. "You were in it pretty deep an had yer friends life ridin on what you did, course you were scared. But ya pulled through it, got the job done. I'm proud of you, an so damn glad you got back safe. I was so worried, felt helpless here...but we're alright now..."

[twisted-kit.livejournal.com]

"I didn't mean to upset you..." she said at last, curled against his chest, one of the few places she'd ever felt truly safe. "But...I knew...the delaying had to be sneaky. you're nt so good ayt that...ummm...not fighting...."

Eventually her crying subsided and she sighed, slowly relaxing.

[adamantine-past.livejournal.com]

"Yeah...guess I'm not." He admitted with a small smile. He stroked her hair now and paced his breathing trying to help calm hers. "I'm sorry bout the mess, I'll clean up. Long as you put that tire back on..." He added with another small smile.

[twisted-kit.livejournal.com]

She nodded "I'll help. It's kind of my fault...and yes, you know I will." in fact, shehad to, she'd phased the tire into the ground in order to keep him froim putting it back on...

Yet, despite herself, her eyes began to drift slowly closed...

[adamantine-past.livejournal.com]

And he wanted to let her sleep. She deserved it so much and needed it just as badly. But for all his worries for her and her health they had to be equal for the baby. And that meant, "Kit, darlin. Come on, yer startin to drift on me..."

Then again, maybe it'd be alright. Just a few minutes, an hour. He could sit, stand watch and keep her safe. But how from herself?

[twisted-kit.livejournal.com]

And she jerked, opening her eyes in panic....damn the lack of coffee. She was tired all the time now...

And she only trusted herself to sleep when she'd dosed herself with a muscle relaxant....

"Thanks you..." she whispered, brushing her lips against his cheek.

[adamantine-past.livejournal.com]

And he closed his eyes, accepting the kiss and thanks with a small nod but not truly feeling deserving. He hadn't done much for her at all. He hadn't been able to help her find Kurt, and hadn't been there when she risked herself to save him. And seeing her so exhausted all the time...how was he helping her through this pregnancy? All the sacrifices were hers, the sleep, the diet...

He gave her a hug and stood up, heading back for the table and clearing the table, putting things away. "You wanna put on a movie, or go for a walk? I can clean up here an around so's you can relax a bit, without dozin off I mean..."

[twisted-kit.livejournal.com]

Adn she looked pained for a moment as he walked away, almost hurt....then nodded softly. "I'll do that I guess."

Terrifying, really, that they'd come to depend on each other so much and yet still managed to tear themselves apart...

She stood up, blanket held close around herelf and drifted out of teh room, brushing her fingers along his back as she left.

But, admittedly, without him...she woudln't be able to face this. She only wished he understood that. She'd spend some time in the library...reading...

[adamantine-past.livejournal.com]

He managed a smile for her as she left then let his shoulders slump and his head fall after she was gone. He tried to gather his thoughts, figure out what he was doing here.

He loved her, truly and without question, and he knew she loved him. So dammit why couldn't he be happy with that. Why couldn't things just work out like they should. And he knew what that reason had to be. He still couldn't shake the almost ever present feeling that she deserved better. Despite all her assurances and what they had together that feeling still nagged at him and caused him to ruin moments like the one they'd just had.

It was a work in progress though, [i]he[/i] was a work in progress. And as he set the table right and headed out to clear out more of his messes the nagging doubt followed him but along with it the hope that with time and work he'd be able to silence those doubts and feel like he was what she needed.

[twisted-kit.livejournal.com]

The computer screen beckoned teh moment she entered the library...falling into work as a distraction...always helped.

She had something she wanted to ask Logan...but she'd wait for him to calm down, to relax...

Being so scared today had made her realize a few things...

[adamantine-past.livejournal.com]

He'd gotten the patio mostly straightened and picked up a good deal in the kitchen before setting about preparing something for Kitty.

He found her in the library, noting that she hadn't taken either of his suggestions but not dwelling on it. Walking up behind her he presented the plate of fruit and a few slices of cheese along with a glass of kool-aid. "Here darlin...thought a snack might help keep you up an figured you were sick of milk..." He smiled at her, the gesture a lot easier and this time true as he'd finally managed to bring himself together.

[twisted-kit.livejournal.com]

And she looked up, warmth in her smile as she set teh plate on a space near teh computer and accepte tdh eglass with a cry of joy. Yes, sick of milk. Very sick.

Then she looked almost nervously up at him, fidgeting slightly, not a common thing for Kit. SHe was more the detahly still type...

"Logan...I...want to ask you something..."

[adamantine-past.livejournal.com]

He leaned beside her against her chair, eyes roaming around the computer and desk but not really seeing what was there. Just more a casual thing as he tried to gain time beside her.

His eyes fell on her when he noticed her fidgeting and her hesitant question, "Sure darlin, go ahead." He nodded trying to urge her on to whatever she had on her mind.

[twisted-kit.livejournal.com]

She drew a deep breath and took his hand, drawing it over her houlder so she coudl lay a kiss on his knuckles and leaned her head back against him "Logan, will you marry me? I have a ring in my room....if you want me to go get it first..."

[adamantine-past.livejournal.com]

And he froze. Went stark still beside her, the shock going so far as to make his breath catch and his hand tighten in hers.

His mind raced trying to catch up and work through the shock. He stared at her and his mouth worked awhile before finally managing, "Why?"

Then he blinked and shook his head, trying to snap out of it, "I mean...yes, I will...I want too but...are you sure? I mean...me...are you sure me?"

He couldn't believe it. One that she had just proposed to him and two how badly he was blowing it.

[twisted-kit.livejournal.com]

She blinked, amazed that he seemed so...blown away. Logan losing coherent speech....unexpected.

"Why? Because I love and I refuse to live without you if you'll let me. Yes, I"m sure, I have been for some time and I know that if I didn't ask you'd talk yourself out of it."

[adamantine-past.livejournal.com]

He finally stopped his babbling and cleared his throat. "Yeah, I...I was and that's pretty much what happened. I just, wasn't sure if you'd..."

He took a breath and shook his head, regaining composure as much as possible and letting what he was trying to say go. Instead taking her hand and giving a firm nod, "Yes darlin, if yer havin me than I sure as hell ain't gonna say no." And to finalize it he bent down and kissed her.

[twisted-kit.livejournal.com]

After the kiss she found herself grinning stupidly. "Well..that's good. It would have been kind of embarassing if I ended up scaring you off..." now she was babbling, but hey, she was happy.

In fact, so much happiness after so much fear earlier probably quaified as being in shock...

Kit...married. To Logan.

And they'd be a family, good parents...

"I love you" she managed through the smiling.

[adamantine-past.livejournal.com]

He tried to compare this to her telling him about the baby to determine which had been more shocking. But to be honest he'd been near dumbfounded then too and couldn't quite remember all of what was said. But he did remember 'I love you,' and as he heard it again he grinned.

"Yeah, I love you too."

[twisted-kit.livejournal.com]

"Good" yep, about covered it. She just happily leaned back against him, glad that now there was going to be a real binding between them. Something to prove that they weren't going to walk out on each other...

[adamantine-past.livejournal.com]

And he stood there, being her support as she leaned back. This was going to be something. But she had asked, and that meant she wanted him right? Accepted him. Of course it did.

Determined not to let doubt ruin the moment he shoved all thoughts aside and focused on just her here with him and the new promise they'd just made.